First, Happy Birthday to my mom, eighty one years young today.
So I wrote on my boards yesterday, “If you think you can, or you think you can't, you're right.” I was at prayer yesterday afternoon. I think I wrote below that I took from a call recently that “I am the answer to.” It occured to me again at Minchah yesterday, which is immediately followed by my seventh grade class.
I want to say that it was one of my better classes with them, but that's really pathetic when most of what I mean is that the ones who usually bother me the most actually decided instead to just be quiet, on their phones or sleeping, enough so I could talk to those at least marginally interested in the first row.
And I did a clearing call last night for an introduction I am leading tomorrow, and I decided the guests are bigger than anything I, or they, could imagine.
When I bring that to my classroom, I'm taking on that they are still just processing being with me. That can take some time, and they are going through their phases, but they'll come around.
I asked my father a week or so before he died, “Why did you make it so hard to love you?”
He replied, “Defense mechanism, I guess.” I don't know why I didn't ask him that earlier, and I don't know if he would have answered. I wish it had occurred to me to, but I don't know that anything would have changed.
We had a coaching for the coaches inside a program I am coaching on Sunday. There was this moment I just got I miss him. I just don't think anyone loved him like I did in the end.
He was a pain in the ass to my mom. To my sisters, I think he was a force that either could not be satisfied, or to be completed with in this turn of the wheel.
Ten things I could do to make it easier to love my classes:
- Give them all 100 from the outset.
- Spend more time finding out what they like.
- Play inside music.
- Play inside poetry.
- Ask them what turns them on.
- Find a way to short out all their phones.
- Bring clay, Playdoh, or plastelina.
- Bring food.
- Watch the right movies with them.
- Let them choose the subject.
- Slip the right questions into my work for them.
- Find time to be with each on his own terms.