So this is my hour. It's been a weird week. Whenever I try to meditate, I just end up having weird dreams. I should start writing them down.
So what I have to say is that maybe you the young should spend your time making the right kind of ghosts. There have been a lot of things just triggering memories, and most of them don't make me smile. They make me sad, that I've missed something, failed to create something. You shouldn't have these kinds of ghosts.
You are far less likely to regret the things you tried than those you didn't, that you did stupid things because they pleased you. And then this comes up a lot around things. Like my Jeep, which made no sense to keep, except that I loved it.
Like the things I talked myself out of, because others made more sense. There's much less charm to being a wandering fifty year old than there is to wander at twenty.
And I feel awful to be so far away. And I wonder if what I am doing is right. And then I put all sorts of garbage into my body, and I don't even care.
Oh, to be a person of vision. I spoke to my buddy this week, and he's great. And I wonder if I need a bigger buy in to finally get off my ass. Like my life isn't enough.
And I think that's what I need to get clear of, that anything that I do will never be enough.
So the rest of this trip is about declaring enough.
So that's my copy: “Have you done enough?” Well, you'll know when you can answer these questions Yes:
- Do your people know if they should pull the plug?
- Have you given authority to one person who will follow your wishes?
- Does someone know how to carry on your business when you can't?
- Does he have authority to?
- Are your kids taken care of if you can't take care of them?
- Do the people you are counting on know you are counting on them?
- Do they know what to do when you can't direct them?
- Are the necessary funds available, to pay your bills, take care of your loved ones, etcetra?
- Are you clear who has authority to access and disburse these funds when you can't? Is the person with authority in the loop?
- Do they know where to bury you?
- Do they know what you want to leave them with, your values, your love, a family that works?
- Do you know that things are settled so the only thing that causes grief is the loss of the one they love?
So that's not really ten ideas, but it's a list, and that's a start. Maybe I'll end with ten ideas to get excited about:
- Nothing Matters
- You/I/We are Free
- Anything is Possible
- I can make someone's life better every day
- I can cause people to smile
- I can cause them to feel understood
- I can help them find a better way
- I provide peace
- I shift people's lives
- I matter
- Fresh Air
- Old cars
- Old homes
- Creaky doors
- Old Tools
- Familiar Smells
- Human Nature
- Father Jokes
- The Ocean
- Brussels Sprouts
- Taking license
That will do for today. I love you all.