So I flinched last night, and I'm not making it mean anything, and that's transformation. And that's more "blah, blah, blah" in my head. There's this software I need in order to do what I am doing right, and it costs a pretty penny, and they want me to commit for a year, and I let this scare me. The truth is it pays itself back in two plans. So I'm going ahead.
The thing is I can imagine a place of success. What I can't really imagine is feeling any less dead inside when I get there.
I'm sad. I looked for a boox I loaned my dad yesterday. I don't think I brought it home last time because I'm always bringing all sorts of other stuff, and now it's gone. I asked my mom about it, and she doesn't know. They just threw out a bunch of Hebrew books that they had no idea what they were.
There's a lot of other stuff gone too. I mentioned to mom that it sometimes feels to me like she had/has this need to erase my dad. She's like "no, I don't," but you should see the crap she kept while she threw his stuff out. It's not like she doesn't have six Hebrew speakers in the family who could help sort it out.
I'm on my way into the city in an hour. I'm not sure why exactly. There's a Jeff Pulver meet-up. I've met him. He's a good guy. He's a technology guy. And I'm realizing for all that I am okay with tech, and actually get a kick out of some of it, I think I'm more old school. I like people, though I have my doubts about most of them individually.
It's probobly not the best way to go through life. On the other hand, most of them like me. I had a really nice conversation with someone yesterday about her own legacy. She answers the phones at the office of one of my go-to guys here. I was looking for a reference for a local vendor, and we got to chatting. She and her husband started the planning process years ago. She executed her will. She doesn't think her husband did his.
And she has some memories she'd like to preserve, and a legacy from her father that one of her children, at least, doesn't value. I can help her there. And will.
Maybe I'll make a list. Ten questions to make a difference with a person:
- Who is your biggest influence today?
- Where do you see yourself in 90 days?
- What's something you wished your younger self got?
- What's something you wish you'd asked your dad? (I've got a lot of these showing up at the moment.)
- What's the next item on your bucket list? By when will you get it done?
- When people think of you, what's the first thing you want to pop into their mind? What are you doing to leave them with that impression?
- What's the most important thing you've learned?
- What act of kindness are you most proud of?
- What do you wish other people got?
- What do you do when you are scared/frustrated/confused? Do you have a practice for creating something new when you feel this way?
- Is there a question that you think most people should ask themselves?
- What could/should we do to understand those who don't live in our echo chamber? Do you think there's a technology (I'll probably be mostly with tech people today) that could foster this?
- Is there a way, and do you think it's wise, to bypass colleges and universities to obtain the skills necessary to ply most licensed professions?
- How have you been surprised by how technology has changed your world?
Now, I've run out of time for today's writing. But I do have some fun questions for this morning's meet-up.