Sometimes it's just a little harder for me to let go. At some point in time yesterday, I was in the office, pop's that is, and I noticed the recycling had been put in the bin to go out.
You know that at home our recycling can sit for months. Well, as I was going through things with mom, I'd thrown out a bunch of old house designs he'd come up with, I think from the late 70s. I didn't want to, but there was no logical reason for keeping them. On my pining about it, mom mentioned that he wasted a lot of time not being with us.
So, when it stopped raining and before I went to bed, and took a flashlight and went and got the old drawings out of the recycling. It just felt like they are a part of him, a thin manilla folder with maybe twenty pages of houses that will never be, and which didn't look that interesting to me, although there was also one of his sitting soldiers (behind a machine gun). I've seen more than one of these, but mostly from an earlier time.
And I made it to the office for a will signing today, and I got to chat with Mrs. A, and it was nice. She's just tired, and it will be good for her to have the practice out of her way. I'm wondering how not to make most of what's there linger too long as I build the other side.
I have my first practice client session tomorrow.
I just don't have it left in me to go on too long. I'll be at a Chabad Camp for Shabbat. That will be cool, and next week, likely in Bridgeport. And I think Sharleen and I should go to Caryn and Jeffrey's when she is here.
And the list today is ten lists Lani could make:
- ten types of compositions
- ten exercizes to make me stronger quicker
- ten unrelated thoughts
- ten paradoxes I could wonder about
- ten places I'd like to discover/visit
- ten ways to stay out of the sun
- ten thoughts most people should ponder
- ten questions everyone should ask themselves
- ten ways I could improve myself
- ten ways I could help others
- ten questions I could ask a chick that would get me to a date
- TEN WAYS I COULD CELEBRATE MOM'S BIRTHDAY!!